Update on life (stream of consciousness)

What a vague, boring title.

It serves as a warning to what this post is going to be like, though.

So take heed.

I'm not sure how many of you out there are actually interested in an update on my life. But since I like to look back and see where I was, how I was feeling, and what was really going on in my life, I'm kind of writing this for me too. At least typing that makes me feel better about venting on my life.

Here we go...

I'm discouraged about jobs. I know, I know, it's late March. It doesn't seem like May is that close, but it is! 30 days away, in case you were wondering.

Thankfully I don't HAVE to have a job by May because I don't move to New Orleans until after the wedding in July.

Anyway, I'm discouraged.

After getting rejected for 2 jobs I applied for without even hearing ANYTHING back from either of them, it hit me.

This is not going to be a gimme like I've thought all these years.

People have always told me after hearing that I'm going into nursing "OHHH YOU'LL BE ABLE TO FIND A JOB ANYWHERE, DOING ANYTHING YOU WANT!"

The facts: That is not true. At least not now.

Blah blah blah, lets not get into that talk "ohhh, the economy these days..."

Because first of all, I don't know a darn thing about the economy except everyone says its bad and only going to get worse. And second, I'm just turned off by all of it. It's depressing and pessimistic and annoying, That's all.

I talked with a nurse recruiter in New Orleans this week. While she was kind and helpful, she was not encouraging.

She told me that the job market for new grads in New Orleans "is impossible". My stomach sank after that conversation. I didn't give up hope. Sure, I might have called Andrew and cried and then dreamt scary dreams about not being able to pay back my student loans and loosing all of my teeth because I can't afford to go to the dentist. (I know, messed up right?! I can't afford to go to the dentist now and my teeth are fine. Maybe my dreams are taking into account my future filled with powdered sugar covered beignets).

Anyway, I'm not giving up hope, I'm still going to apply for jobs. It's just not how I thought it was going to be.

Things always work that way, and they always turn out, but I still can't trust because I have my own plans dangit!

Andrew calls me stubborn. I fight him on that sometimes.

Does that mean I'm stubborn?

Probably.

Want to know my "plan"? Since it doesn't matter at all and the Lord will do what He wants? My plan as of tonight is to apply for positions that I want even though I don't have the required 2-3 years RN experience that they are asking for. We'll see how that goes. I'll keep you updated.

If you're thinking of me, pray that I would be content with what God has in store for my career. I've had high hopes and big dreams and it's quite hard realizing they probably aren't going to happen right when I want them to.

Other than that, right now my life consists of studying (surprise, surprise) and trying to finish this blasted capstone project.

My wonderful group working hard tallying thousands of surveys. (I told them to look like you're working hard...that's what Lisa and Becca gave me).

I didn't even come home last night because we had so much to do. I was gone from my apartment for almost 36 hours straight.

April 8th is when the project is due. April 15th is our symposium for it.

After that it will be smooth sailing to graduation.

Until then, my group and I have capstone dates every day. Just the kind of dates I've been dreaming of.

At around 7pm today after staying up all night, taking (and doing miserably on) two tests, and not eating dinner because we were bound and determined to get things done, Brittany said "I need to do something." She got up from her chair and began doing this (and Becca followed suit). I'm lucky to have such a good group of people to work with.

Upside-down stress therapy.

So thats that.

If you read all of that nonsense, I applaud you and apologize.