Love in the lies

I was reminded tonight about the importance of guarding my heart.

For me, (I'm sure no one out there is like this) I really really really want to be loved, cherished, and cared for. And instead of seeking that love and care in the One who can and will provide I seek for that affirmation in people. I get so wrapped up in the desire to want to be loved.

As I reflect on the past I recognize that I let my heart take the place of my brain quite frequently.

Impulsive.

It really is that simple.

It would be silly to say "I don't need love", I know for sure that is not true. Love from others is important. I feel like it would be difficult to begin understand the vast, unfailing love of the Father if we didn't know love from our parents, friends, neighbors, family. Transversely, if we don't know His vast, unfailing love then we cannot truly know any other love.

I remember writing recently on here that I have never felt more loved before in my life. Still my impulsive heart is not always satisfied. The bottom line is we are all loved with an unfailing, selfless love and we shouldn't long for anything other.

Once again, it's that simple.

Why does it take so much for that to get into my thick head...and heart?

How vast the heavens above this place so small beneath his glory. Still he stooped and showed his face and poured his mercy on me. Oh serve him, he who brings the morning. Oh serve him, only serve him he who brings the morning. Praise his name forever. -Andrew Peterson

It's the same in every language

Spring break was fantastic. Had a great time relaxing, doing a lot of catching up with a few of the people I love most, going on a wildlife safari, walking through some beautiful gardens and working a little.

Back in the swing of things now. I started my new job, which so far I am really loving. Stunt night is tomorrow night and I am super excited about it. You should come. It's going to be really great.

Lots of great, exciting things happening right now. I'm really enjoying life. It's pretty fabulous. Fabulous doesn't mean with out struggle, but I'm learning that struggle is not all bad. A lot of good comes from hardships. I've learned so much over the past couple of months about myself and how I have SO much work to become the woman I want to become. God is a God of grace, and I am grateful.

A slow spring forward

Today was hectic. This whole 2 tests in one day that the oh so sweet nursing program loves to pull drives me crazy. It's over though and now I can concentrate on this 30 article paper due for micro on friday. Good times.

I missed church on Sunday because of the time change. I knew it was coming, but just completely forgot about it. Bedside Baptist was good to me though, not as good as going to real church would have been but, what can I do about it now?

Spring break...3 days. 3 days. 3 days. Not sure what it is going to entail. Hopefully some money makin' and maybe a lil beach going with some buddies. Either way it will be a good time for rest and relaxation. I need to get some work done for school too, we'll see how that goes.

My time here on duty is slowly winding down. I need to go fluff the couch cushions and do some other extremely difficult RA tasks.

love.

hey stranger

It's been a while. Things have been going full speed, in the best way possible. The weather today is wonderful. I busted out the shorts and my pasty white legs greeted the sun for the first time in a long while today.

Exciting things that have happened:
-Went and watched Mark run his first (half) marathon. He did great, first place! (in all our hearts!) It was so fun to go on a little trip with the friends.
Mark after running 13 miles in and hour and a half:

-Met a banana man: -Went rock climbing! It was so fun...but now I am paying the price of having extremely sore arms

-Got a job! Wahoo!

-Today for gerontology class we went and played bingo at Belton Senior Center and it was so so so fun. The prizes were these rockin' cookies, and it made my day to hang out with a bunch of hilarious old(er) people.

Exciting things that are about to happen:

-Women of Worship this weekend!

-Stunt night! It's going to be SO funny.

-SPRING BREAK: Hallelujah!