Ramblings.

Today Danielle and I made up a fun game in the hall while going to lunch. You get assigned a color tile, and you have to stay on that color tile (NO MATTER WHAT) and the first one to not stay on their color loses. It was fun. People looked at us strange, but what's new?

Also, today at work we moved into the new section of our building. It's so exciting. It's big and pretty and I get a rolly chair and 2 computers! I feel so executive like, it's cool. The new receptionist who works the shift before and a little overlapping mine is real nice...I feel bad for being so negative about it at first. Her and I talked today for about an hour when we should've been working, tomorrow she is going to teach me how to play poker. I'm pumped. Her name is Sara and her haircut is cute.

Recently I have noticed how weird people at school are...it's been real entertaining. Just watching, and laughing. Probably the same thing people do to Danielle and I while we hop down the hall laughing trying to balance on certain color tiles.

I got to talk to this interesting person in my english class today- we talked about the book we are reading (brave new world) and how he thinks it's all going to come true. His creepiness was slightly overwhelming, and I wasn't sure how to deal, but eventually I changed the subject and we talked about dog breeds, leave it up to me to make the conversation completely pointless, and strange. BUT at least we were no longer talking about growing babies in test tubes.

I read the 2nd chapter of the book Journey of Desire today at work. Can I just get it out there and say that I really am enjoying this book. I might have to write an entry about it, but some other time when I am feeling less rambly and a little more serious.

I got very little sleep last night, but during the few hours I did get, I had some of the weirdest dreams ever. Completely irrelevant to what is happening in my life, (which is the way I like them because then I'm not paranoid) but weird nonetheless.

I believe I am done, only because I feel like sparing you from anymore of this.

Have a good week. :D

The Same Old Thing

I wonder sometimes when things are going to change. I think about how in 5 months, I'm graduating, that will change quite a bit, but how much? I'm not sure. I really am ready for things to be right. My want for things to be right is so strong that it overrides my logic and turns in my head, in hope against hope, every time. Something in me longs, hopes, and maybe even at times believes that this is not the way things were supposed to be. I have trouble accepting the fact that this is the way things are, or must be, or will always be. I know that the biggest mistake is to get used to it, to get broken into it so graually that I never even notice it anymore. I know that it's a mistake to be apathetic, to just say ''it will be fine'' and move on. I guess that moto would be okay if I didn't use it so frequently, or as a cover up to my feelings. I think I'm slowly learning how to, and growing up to be more open. I desire this. Because I know that even my troubles, and heartbreaks tell me something, and teach me something. I'm trying now to not just settle for the same old thing.

''She was a good fish...''

First of all, I have some very sad news to report. Danielle, my tiniest baby fish died today. I knew that her death was imminent after she could no longer use her left fin, and could only swim down, hitting her nose on the rocks, but I was hoping for a miracle. No such miracle occurred, so I had to flush her. It was sad, and her sister, Sister Roberta, misses her greatly.

Aside from fish deaths, this week has been pretty decent. School got cancelled Wednesday, which gave me some time to catch up on my reading and notes for government. I have yet to die from an asthma attack, so that's a plus. Although, I did get a little too close for comfort this week, I really think it's going to be downhill from here (in a good way) when the weather gets warmer and less rainy.

The Lord's greatness has been brought to my attention numerous times this week, I pray that he will continue to make me aware of all the things He is constantly doing for me. No matter how small or big they are. He deserves all the glory.

In honor of Danielle, I am going to put a picture of her and Sister Roberta up, this is from the first day the human Danielle and I got them...

Back to School

My last semester of high school (hopefully). The sigh of relieve is just a short 5 months away. Just 5 months until I walk across that stage in my blue gown. Just 5 months until I get to let go of all that is holding me down now, all the things I can't escape. Just 5 months until I get to move on, live my new life. It's Crazy. Exciting. Sad in some ways. I can't believe I'm so close to this day...

This semester is going to be a lot tougher than last. Government, English, and Economics! I think I am going to enjoy my classes though. The people in them are really interesting and fun. My day will never lack entertainment, which I enjoy.
College is another subject people keep asking me about...''where are you planning on going?'' ''have you been accepted?'' It's a little overwhelming, mainly because I have procrastinated pretty badly on this whole college thing. I did however get an acceptance letter from the University of Mary Hardin Baylor, which was exciting, not to mention surprising since I didn't even complete all the requirements for admission. I am happy about that, I would really love to go to that school, but we will just have to wait and see. I finally completed and sent in my application for Tech yesterday, so hopefully I will hear back from them soon, and be able to make a decision. Money will be the decision maker in the end, so now my goal is to concentrate on scholarships. I think if I set my mind to applying to as many as possible, getting all the massive amounts of paper work done for the FAFSA and all other financial aid things, and just really try hard at it, I might be able to get a lot paid for. I'm praying for success with that, that would be a heavy burden lifted.
All in all, I'm pumped about these last few months. I am going to really try and cherish the time I have left with friends, and the people who are like family to me. I know it's not goodbye forever, and I am probably making this a bigger deal than it really is, but it is going to be a big change. I'm ready :)

I got to see my family on Wednesday, I wasn't feeling very well, so I probably wasn't the most fun big sister in the world, but they still brought a smile to my face. Chloey is growing up too fast. She is precious, a brat, but precious nonetheless. I hope that when I go to college that I will still be able to be there for all my siblings, I don't know how I will be able to be the kind of sister I am now when I go away...but maybe that's just part of the growing and learning process for all of us.

Yep, she's cute, and definitely not shy, I just caught her cheating while playing peek a boo with me (obviously, I was cheating as well).